Monday Morning Pages: Blogging like no one’s reading

by Rebecca A. Watson on January 13, 2014

in Monday Morning Pages, the artist's way, writing

A few years back I was having lunch with a colleague I’d just met. She started talking about how there were definitely seasons of her life — patterns of things that happened every year. Not so much like, “every January I make new resolutions,” but more like, “every August something life-altering happens.”

Since the moment she said that, it got me thinking about the patterns in my life. June and July seem like big ones for me: In different years, I’ve met one of my best friends, moved to California, quit my office job to start a business, and moved to Germany.

Since starting The Artist’s Way in 2011, I’ve filled up about 20 journals with my morning pages. Some of it is just mindless babble — brain drain so to speak — and some of it turns into blog posts or just ideas for writing or just meditation.

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But as this collection starts to grow, I’m seeing it for what it also is: a history of sorts, a way to look at patterns that happen throughout the year.

I’ve decided to try something new this year because I’m finally settled and because dreams do come true (more on that later). I’m going to let you peak into my morning pages while I look through them to expose the themes of my seasons.

I wondered if this would be easy or if I’d end up reaching, but as I’ve looked through my writing, the theme this week was incredibly easy. You see, when I thought about doing this, I got a little nervous. What if one of the themes was really intense or personal? Or worse … controversial? Would I hurt someone’s feelings?

Then I read this from January 13, 2012:

Quit worrying about about what others think of your blog.

And this in January 14, 2012:

I think spending more time blogging like no one’s reading and voicing your own opinions will make it more feasible to have those experiences [travel].

After an exercise where I was told to write something shocking, I wrote this on January 15, 2013:

It was very freeing to get it [the writing] out of me. But I still had my censor on. It was still tough to writing and I think I self-censored, but not like I would if I’d have written it on the blog.

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You’ll notice that sometimes I write to “you,” which is really just me talking to myself, or sometimes me having a discussion with the Universe, or God, or whatever you wanna call it. Regardless, I’ve been thinking about writing from the heart, without the censor.

I’ve written about this before, but I think it’s good to come back to it. I must speak, or in this case, write my truth. It’s what makes dreams possible. And it also makes for great blog posts. I know this because the times I have taken the censor off, I’ve gotten some pretty good response.

I encourage you to do the same. Are you keeping your real dreams to yourself? Are your responses more what you think people would want to hear rather than what is in your heart? It’s time to change that.

It takes feeling vunerable. It takes being honest with yourself and others. It takes baby steps, like admitting you’d actually like to watch that cheesy action movie rather than the drama your friend picked out. Or saying you’d really rather have a salad when your partner suggests grabbing a burger.

It might sound silly, but that is where it starts. The less you censor your answers and your behavior, the more you’ll feel at one with yourself, and in turn the world around you. Because after all, that’s what we all are: One.

Are you trying to live more authentically? Does this resonate with you?

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Olivia January 15, 2014 at 1:25 pm

This is so me… right now, I’ve been writing in my journal so my censorship is non-existent, and then I’ll occasionally share on my blog because it’s more real, and it’s more “me.”

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Rebecca A. Watson January 18, 2014 at 3:30 am

I love when you share your journal on your blog. It’s actually where I got the courage to do this, so thanks girlie!

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Nameless Here January 25, 2014 at 4:20 am

For years I have been meaning to do this. I read The Artist’s Way and will reread every so often. Being an addict is always getting in the way of living the life I want. 🙁 Today I am back to a new start date!

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Rebecca A. Watson January 28, 2014 at 2:18 am

Congrats on your new start day 🙂 It’s a great thing to do, being in recovery. I am thankful for it most every day. And yeah, the first time I read The Artist Way she wrote about creative blocks and it said I’d know what they were. Well, duh! Of course booze. But that didn’t stop me from drinking. Now I’m trying it again without drinking this time. Hope it helps me become even more creative 🙂 Best wishes on your recovery!

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Nancy February 1, 2014 at 7:28 am

My censor is a snake. Wily thing. Is always slithering around. I try so hard to not be self conscious with my writing, to be authentic. But sometimes, for example, I feel so narcissistic if I write “you” in my blog — who else but me is reading it anyway? And then I think it doesn’t matter, shouldn’t matter. The important thing is to keep writing.
This post really resonates with me. Keep writing.

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Rebecca A. Watson February 2, 2014 at 7:05 am

Ahhhh I know what you mean about writing “you” on your blog. Forever I would write “we” so that I wouldn’t use “you.” Weird how our brains work. But you’re right. It shouldn’t matter. Glad my post resonated with you 🙂 Thanks for the comment!

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