MMP: Leave Room For Mystery to Work Its Magic

by Rebecca A. Watson on April 14, 2014

in goals, holidays, magic, Monday Morning Pages

I grew up in Midwest, where everything is on a grid. Streets ran east and west. Avenues crossed them at a pleasing perpendicular north and south. It was insanely easy to find your way around. I had an excellent internal compass, or so I thought, until I moved into Minneapolis, where the mighty Mississippi worked all sorts of havoc with my inner GPS.

Even after living there for seven years, whenever I headed over to the Riverside area of town, I would still get lost. Part of that may have had to do with the fact that all the bars with good music were over that way, but I digress.

Troublesome or not, I love this city.

Troublesome or not, I love this city.

Since moving out of Minnesota, this phenomenon has only gotten worse. In California, there was an ocean on one side of town — the south side for that matter. The Pacific Ocean had always meant west to me, but not anymore. And on the other side were mountains. The roads rarely ran on true north and south.

And Europe? Forget about it. The buildings and roads were designed before cars really existed. Now, whenever I’m walking or biking around a new place and my directions tell me to continue along a certain road for a few blocks or miles, I’ll usually keep checking the road signs as I go to make sure I’m still going the right way. It just gives me peace of mind.

Recently, I’ve been looking around, trying to figure out what I should be doing. Like, what’s my next big thing? Cause, you know, I’m an Aries and a Type-A personality, so the fact that I’m not even a year into my international move and am writing a book isn’t enough. There’s gotta be something more. Something else.

“What should I be doing?” I ask the Universe.

And guess what the Universe whispers back?

You’re on the right track. Just keep doing what you’re doing. 

This is a most disappointing answer. How boring, I think. But it would seem this is the message I get around this time of the year, at least for the past few. In 2012:

We all have to make a great journey, and of course we all come back to our original starting point, but it looks much different because we’re different. … I feel like I’m on my path now. I didn’t even realize that — holy crap! I was SO effed up for the first few weeks when I decided not to engage anymore [in an old conflict], completely off orbit. I felt so weird. And then lately I’ve felt so on my path, like I know what I’m doing and what I want to do and I’m doing it. It just feels so good, and not necessarily easy, but right and like the Universe is clearing my path in front of me. I didn’t even realize that until right this moment.

And in 2013:

I feel like I am making big steps in the right direction. There’s another thing: Peace. In my mind and in my body.  I do the things I love: garden, cook, grocery shop, clean. Without rush. Without worry. I think I’m pretty well on track. And who knows what will happen with everything? Exactly. You want to leave some room for mystery.

This is my birthday month, so I’m always really doing a lot of personal inventory and reflection as well as goal setting for the next year. A Rebecca New Year, if you will. And for many years, there have been plenty of things to attend to. I mean, seven years ago I didn’t even floss my teeth or work out.

Still, not a bad smile. Maybe the pig helps :)

Still, not a bad smile. Maybe the pig helps 🙂

But now, I’ve got many things a lot more under control. I’m not saying I’ve got it figured out or that I’m perfect. Nah. What I am saying is that I have a set of goals I’m working on right now and that’s enough. I’m on the road to making those dreams a reality. Let’s not put too much more on my plate. Let’s leave some space for the unknown to come in and visit.

I think it’s important to note that when I wrote this, I was still several weeks from knowing anything about a job offer for Sante in Germany. In fact, we were putting an offer on a house. If I’d added more goals on top of the ones I was already doing, would this opportunity not come along? Who knows?

The point is, in reading this, I figured something out: Listen to the Universe when it says you’re doing well. Believe when it says you’re on the right track. These are the road signs I look for because I just need a little extra encouragement.

After all, although the physical roads were easy to navigate in my childhood, the metaphorical road signs weren’t that obvious; sometimes they were hidden. I had no idea where I was going for a long time. Now that I do, maybe it’s time to trust the signs and continue to let the Universe work its magic.

So this year for my personal resolutions I’m going to keep on writing my book, work on improving my German, continue traveling whenever possible and set a place at my birthday table for the star guest, mystery. Because lord knows, I’m a fan.

Wondering what this Monday Morning Pages thing is all about? Read how it started. Or check out all the archives.

Photo credits: Matthew Paulson

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carrythemessage April 15, 2014 at 4:40 pm

Lovely stuff!

I often get nervous when the Universe tells me something like that. That’s because I feel like I need to be doing MORE. Like you, it’s kind of boring. I am not a type-A personality, but I still want to feel that I am in control of something!! Damn ego. I, like everyone else on this planet, would just love to know what it is we are needed to do here. Perhaps there are some that already know it. Smart asses…lol. And you know, I do believe some have that keen insight and gift of knowing what it is they are supposed to be doing. perhaps it’s jealousy that I don’t know what my plan is. I guess I am yet to find it out.

But until then, I guess I have no choice but to shut my mouth and listen. Not easy for a guy like me…but I’ll take it. Because the last time I tried to run my own life…well, it didn’t work out too well 🙂

Great post…and great smile!

Paul

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Rebecca A. Watson April 15, 2014 at 4:55 pm

Thanks for stopping by Paul! Yes, those folks who just seem to know are amazing aren’t they? Life seems easier for them, I think. But I know that isn’t true because we all have our own stuff. Everyone. Keeping our mouths shut and listening…now there’s a concept! I’m working on it though too. You’re right. The second we try to put ourselves in charge of this whole thing is the second things get hairy. Better to leave that up to something with a bigger picture view 🙂

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hula~la April 15, 2014 at 6:50 pm

Rebecca, all we have is now. Tune in to the NOW of your essential BEING and understand the “aha” moments that present themselves to you when you stop looking for answers. The Universe is having a conversation with you…RIGHT NOW….be still and listen! The beauty and peace that transcends through you will make that beautiful smile of yours constant!!!
Aloha Friend

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Rebecca A. Watson April 17, 2014 at 2:35 pm

🙂 Thanks my dear. I am reading a lot of the Power of Now lately, so I feel ya!

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