Monday Morning Pages: Heal, let go and be reborn

by Rebecca A. Watson on April 21, 2014

in change, Monday Morning Pages

Folks, I’ll be real honest with you. It’s Easter Monday here in Germany, which means no stores are open, most people have the day off and it’s one of the few times I’m thinking the Catholics may have gotten something right.

And although I believe I tempered the coffee cake and hummingbird cake I’ve eaten this weekend with runs and hikes, I’m feeling pretty lazy.

hummingbird recipe photo

I did exert some energy *making* the cake. (Click for this recipe. OMG.)

That being said, I did read through all of my journals from 2012 and 2013 this week, and wow did I have a lot of stuff coming up right about then. Anxiety, guilt, self-doubt, anger. But also forward momentum, big wheels of compassion for self and neighbor, and gratitude.

But because I’ve got a bit of a cold and am writing this from bed, I’m thinking I’ll just pull out a few things that resonated with me to share with you.

From 2012:

One way or the other, just quit making it an issue, Just let it be and move forward. That’s the secret to moments of drama: Pick a decision, an action, do it and then move along. Don’t sit and analyze your action over and over, especially after you’ve already made the decision.

Move along. If I sit and talk about it all day it becomes an issue and it really is a non-issue. That’s the struggle I’ve realized about myself, to let the action and decision just be after I’ve made it.

From 2013:

I’ve consumed enough coffee to alter my mood. It’s interesting that I just want to do that — alter myself. There are things I thtink and do and say that have been attempted to be beaten out of me, which is just really too bad. But I see now that I am trying to continue that process with my mood-altering, mind-altering substances.

If I just let myself be, then I am bad. But those behaviors I do to change myself are bad too. Exactly the problem. So now I just need to change my attitude to embrace myself. I am an excellent human without any changes to myself.

 

And then there’s this meditation that really spoke to me this week:

meditation about natural healing process

 

This whole month has been a healing process for me, with wild dreams and a few unexpected tears, but I’ve also been able to let go of so much that has bothered me in the past. And although I’m not what you’d call a traditional Christian, I do believe Easter is all about rebirth and new beginnings. It’s been the best way to celebrate my Geburtstagswochenende

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Primrose April 22, 2014 at 8:53 am

dreaming last night about drinking. and about washing clothes in a river and watching them all floating away from me downstream beyond my reach. waking feeling shaken and disturbed.

thanks for this post. I do believe that dreams are our minds’ way of processing and releasing daytime emotions. letting it go today. xx

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Rebecca A. Watson April 23, 2014 at 9:57 am

Yes, let it go. Those drinking dreams can really mess with your head, but know that you’re moving forward without all those ugly emotions and feelings that left you shaken and disturbed. As my friend says, you’ve got to feel it to heal it. You’re doing great 🙂 Hugs!

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carrythemessage April 24, 2014 at 3:25 pm

It’s just has rebirth and transformation written all over it, doesn’t it? Letting go of the things that no longer serve you – what a great relief! What freedom. Releasing the things that burden us is a lighter way to go through life. And it sounds like you are really on that path. What a wonderful thing to go through, and to share with us. Tears come with that package, methinks. Maybe not every single time, but we do mourn in some ways.

Love this post…thank you 🙂

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Rebecca A. Watson April 24, 2014 at 5:06 pm

Awwww thanks Paul 🙂 Yep, I think you’re right. Tears come with the package because mourning is part of the process of letting go, right? Thanks for the kind words. Big hugs to you!

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