MMP: Blogging Without (Much Of) A Censor

by Rebecca A. Watson on December 29, 2014

in comfort, Monday Morning Pages, writing

At the beginning of this year I had an idea: Blog like no one’s reading. Basically I wanted to stop censoring what I write. When I was younger I was censored. As I got older, I self-censored.

censor

Seems about right.

This year-long exercise turned into my Monday Morning Pages, which helped me start writing more from my heart, even if I thought it might make me, or someone other folks, uncomfortable.

Not coincidentally, this has also been a banner year for my blog. Everything, from the number of visiting to the number of posts they’re reading to the amount of time they spend, has doubled.

Here are some of my posts that were my most popular and also the ones that made my censor the most nervous:

MMP: Let Go of Your “Shame A Dish”

Before & After: One Year Without Alcohol

White Silence: I’m Afraid to Be Called Racist

After the Illusion: How I Got My Magic Back

Sober Is Not a Uniform

Breaking up (With Family) is Hard to Do

I’m Sick of Sober

20 Ways to Enjoy A (Birth)Day Without Drinking

You might wonder why the drinking posts made my censor nervous. I mean, c’mon. I’d come out as a non-drinker and obviously wasn’t interested in being anonymous about it.

The thing I didn’t want was to be a “sober blogger.” I didn’t want that term to define me. But it turns out I’m pretty good at it, and that helps a lot of people. And since my life’s mission statement is “to help people with my writing,” I decided I might as well roll with it.

I think it’s probably quite obvious why the other posts made me nervous. But since I’ve written them, I’ve gotten a lot of feedback from folks saying my writing resonated with them.

It makes me feel good. It also tells me that I need to write from the heart more. I need to push myself and my censor more. Because even though I may have tried to blog like no one was reading, I still held back a bit.

So here’s to a year of pushing myself. And here’s to a 2015 full of even more uncomfortable moments for my censor.

Wondering what this Monday Morning Pages thing is all about? Read how it started. Or check out all the archives.

Photo Credit: Kayla Sawyer

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kate wilson January 14, 2015 at 8:16 pm

Hi there I just discovered your blog and your writing while searching for people’s experiences while living abroad. I am trying to write a piece on my blog about depression and the expat life (I hate that expression but it’s quick and you know what I mean?) I hit on this exact problem that you talk about here – how much to share and how much to keep back. I understand all about self censorship and how hard it is to get that balance right. I also find that when I open up and write from the heart, people respond from theirs. But it’s scary how true. Anyway, I have bookmarked your blog and I am sure I will be back to read some more. I must go back now and try to actually write my own post. My blog feels like a bit of a mess at the moment as I search for my main theme and try to find out who my natural readers are. But, like you I find writing it helps a lot to clarify things. I love the idea of Monday Pages. Did that come from The Artist Within? Great idea – perhaps one day a week I too could let loose a little .

all the best
sorry for rambling
Kate

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Rebecca A. Watson January 19, 2015 at 2:40 pm

Hey lady, thanks for the comment. No worries about rambling 🙂 Super glad you dropped by and I do know what you mean about the expat life. I really wanted to avoid that cliche and wanted to hang out with only Germans when I first moved here. I quickly realized that isn’t realistic and set me up for a lonely life. I’ll be heading over to check out your blog shortly. And yes, I got the Monday Morning Pages from the Artist Way, actually. I’ve been writing them for years 🙂 hugs to you!

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kate wilson January 14, 2015 at 8:17 pm

sorry forgot to tick the box below 🙂

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