Two Years & No Booze

by Rebecca A. Watson on March 23, 2015

in habits, Just Be, life, magic, Recovery

Today marks two years where I haven’t had a drink. If you read my blog last year, you may remember I had a pretty epic post marking my one year without booze.

For a while, as I approached my two year anniversary, I was trying to think of how I could out-do last year – what would be bigger and better? But I got to thinking perhaps that mindset is, in part, what got me into this pickle in the first place.

Outdoing myself, weekend after weekend, birthday after birthday, New Year after New Year.

To be fair, I've had some pretty epic birthdays.

To be fair, I’ve had some pretty epic weekends.

The fact of the matter is that I can’t one-up last year because the first year without alcohol is its own special beast — complete with its own trials and triumphs.

The honest truth is, if I had another year of that much change, of that much newness, I’d probably be pretty frazzled. Can a girl have a little stability please? I’ve read that the first year without alcohol is all about learning to live life sans booze and the second year is all about learning to live with yourself. Or something like that.

I’m not sure about that but what I am sure of is who I am. I am also more sure of who I want around me. I’ve learned to set boundaries, albeit a bit clumsily but hey, practice makes better, right?

Interestingly I have also let go of a lot of fear I have and my trust in the Universe has nestled nicely into my heart. My spiritual life has gone into overdrive (I say this in a good way). I’m in near constant contact with my guidance, I’ve been visited by my grandmother and ancestors in my dreams, and I can add seeing spirits to my list of supernatural skills.

good witch

I am a good witch after all 😉

At one point I lamented my inability to be creative and psychic without the booze, but it just took a little getting used to. The amount of writing I produce lucid far surpasses my best days drinking. And it’s better too.

This is not to say that there haven’t been days where I’ve cried until I’ve drooled and had no real idea of why. It’s just that no knowing why has mattered less. And I’ve been able to pull myself out of this more readily, accept my fragility and learn to treat myself less like a machine and more like a human. A friend even.

So instead of working for hours on a blog post, I am traveling from Prague to Innsbruck right now. I’ll probably get a massage and eat a delicious dinner, because that’s how I celebrate these days.

There’s no need to try to out-do last year. There’s no need to do anything beyond just be. Life is good. And yes, in case you hadn’t guessed, I’ll be re-upping for year three. I can’t wait to see what’s in store. It’s gonna be a great 365 days. Cheers!

Photo Credit: Anna Fischer

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Jen March 23, 2015 at 2:43 pm

Congratulations on two years alcohol free! You sound very content and happy. I love what you said about being your own friend now. I feel that way, too. Have a wonderful trip! 🙂

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Rebecca A. Watson March 24, 2015 at 8:10 am

Thanks Jen 🙂 yes being my own friend means I’m ok alone and also know how to choose other good friends. I feel blessed.

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SueW March 23, 2015 at 5:14 pm

Happy 2 year soberversary my friend! Have a wonderful vacation.

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Rebecca A. Watson March 24, 2015 at 8:11 am

Thanks my dear! Just having a morning coffee looking out the window at the Alps. Not bad at all 😉

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Paul March 26, 2015 at 1:44 am

congrats my friend!!

I am so very happy for you!!

And what I love about this post is the easy breezy way you came about this. We are changing at a great rate, and the second year is certainly different than the first indeed. I agree – if sobriety was how that first year was, I would go nuts…or start drinking again! lol. the first year is tough, no doubt. Great strides, but tough. But second year is a levelling off. I was still heavy into my recovery stuff, but I was starting to look around a lot more – seeing what life had to offer.

And you will see more and more that while sobriety is priority #1, it doesn’ rule your life either! It is what it is – the key to a fantastic life. so live it…and that’s what you’re doing.

This made me smile today!

Blessings
Paul

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Rebecca A. Watson March 31, 2015 at 1:39 pm

Thanks for your kind words Paul 🙂 Glad I could make you smile. A levelling off…great way to put it. I do feel like everything is more even keel and I’m looking forward to more of that.

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19Cathleen March 26, 2015 at 11:52 pm

Hooray for your 2 years!!!! Sounds like you are taking good care of your sober self. Congratulations and hugs all around. 🙂

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Rebecca A. Watson March 31, 2015 at 1:40 pm

Thanks my dear 🙂 So happy to see your comment today! Hope you’re doing well too!

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